Why I went private...

For the last two years or so I have had feedjit at the bottom of my blog. It shows what site people come in off of, whether it's one of my friends blogs, they googled it or if they came directly meaning they just typed in my blog name. It also shows what city and state they came from and what pictures they clicked on to make bigger to look at. As well as how they left the blog whether it was from clicking on a friends blog, one of my favorites or just closed down the computer. Every single time I check my blog ( which is every day, most the time more than once a day) I scroll down to the bottom and check my feedjit to see who came and what they looked at. Yesterday when I got on my blog and checked my feedjit it showed that about 25-30 pictures were looked at from someone in Tulsa Oklahoma (I know of no one in that State). I always like to open the links to see what pictures people are viewing. I was sitting in my parents kitchen on my Dads laptop computer and my Dad was standing in the kitchen doing dishes. I opened the first picture and it was of Maylee sitting in her princess chair wearing only her panties. And this really bad feeling came over me. So I opened the next picture and it was a picture of Maylee running around in the living room in only her panties. That bad feeling got really strong. I even thought in my head to say out loud to my Dad that I think something was going on, but then I thought this is crazy, I'm probably being dramatic. But I continued to open all the pictures and every single one was of Maylee. Most being in her panties just playing around my house. But the thing is in order to find these pictures you have to back scroll through every single post I have made and there are at least 20-30 pictures in between all these pictures of the rest of my family. So they skipped over hundrens of picutres of everyone else and only opened ones of Maylee. It's not like the only pictures on here are of Maylee in her panties. There is a lot but that's because she refuses to wear clothes. I never figured it was a big deal, she's just a little girl. So after opening a few more pictures I finally told my Dad what was happening. The first 13 pictures that were looked at showed that they came in my Tulsa Oklahoma, from my friend Whitney's blog and that they were looked at 9 hours and 13 minutes ago and that they left via so and so's blog, they left through about 15 of my friends blogs that were linked on mine. The next three pictures that were looked at came from Tulsa Oklahoma, came in directly (so now this person either saved my blog on their computer or memorized my blog name) and that they came in 30 minutes ago. And they left by just shutting down the browser. Then there was another set of pictures looked at about 13 in a row, from a person that came in from Tulsa Oklahoma, directly, 26 minutes ago and they left by shutting down their browser. At this point I was feeling pretty upset and I was telling my Dad about it, David heard what was going on so he came out from studying and I showed him a few of the pictures that were looked at and then I lost it and started sobbing. It just grosses me out to think that someone was looking at my little girl. I can't even let my imagination run wild, I have to focus on not thinking about what that person was doing or thinking because it makes me so upset. So I instantly logged on to my blog and put it on private. I have never wanted to go private. I love being able to blog hop around my friends blogs and find old friends and see what they are up to and doing and I have had some old friends find me the same way and I love it. It makes me so mad that there are people out there who are so disgusting and ruin such good things. David said it was a good thing he wouldn't be able to find this person because he wouldn't be able to control himself from doing some serious damage. It creeps me out and I hope and pray that none of the pictures that were viewed were saved to their computer or printed out. I've done all that I can do by putting my blog on private and now I just have to put this incident behind me so that I won't go crazy with anger and guilt. And guilt because I have had people tell me in the past that some times preditors will find blogs and start stalking your family or kids. And I always thought, that won't happen to us. Well apparently it has and all I can do is hope that now with my blog blocked this person will forget about Maylee and never think to try and find her. That is why I went private.

Mom, Stormy, Tara and her kids all came up to Henderson last week to visit for a few days. I can tell that I hardly ever get visitors because I'm pretty sure I was more excited than the kids. They got in Monday afternoon and everyone was pretty tired from the car ride. So we hung out at home until later in the evening when we headed over to the indoor pool by my house to swim. I got Dutch and Maylee each a super thin life jacket and I am so glad that I did. They can swim all over the pool without any help and I don't have to feel too super stress about having 3 kids that don't know how to swim. Tuesday a friend of mine was so kind as to let us borrow her amazing pool for the day. We took the kids swimming for a few hours and they had a blast. I only had one scare that put me in tears. I was swimming with Talli under the waterfall, Mom was under there too with Neela and the other kids were just swimming and Maylee was on the big step with Stormy and Tara. I happen to look over and see the top of Maylee's head. And I said to my Mom, "Does Maylee have her life jacket on." It was hard to see through the water fall. But I quickly realized that she did not have it on, she was not playing and she was actually drowning. So I quickly threw Talli at Mom and said hold her. And I swam to Maylee as fast as I could. As soon as I grabbed her and pulled her up out of the water she started coughing and throwing up a little bit of water. None of us knew how long it was before I saw her. It scared me and Maylee so bad. Maylee just cried and cried and cried right along with her. It's scary how even with four adults watching the kids something like that can happen. Apparently Maylee took off her life jacket and neither Stormy or Tara saw her do so. I don't know if she was actually trying to swim with out it or trying to get it because it had started to float off the step. But I do know that from here on out she will be wearing her life jacket with a safety pin, since she has a tendency to take it off without asking. Other than that it was a fun filled day at the pool. I was so proud of Dutch because he was jumping off the waterfall and going down the slide. He was doing so good without getting nervous.

After cleaning up and getting ready we headed to The District to let the kids ride the carousel. During the summer the rides are free so the kids can ride it over and over again and just pick different animals every ride. My kids love going there. Everyone slowly started leaving the carousel one by one. I can only ride a few times due to motion sickness but my kids can last up to nine rides. So I just stand on the side lines until they're done. After we were all done riding we were sitting around watching the kids play in the grass. Maylee found a mister down low enough that she could play in. Her and Neela were soaked by the time we left. They were using it more as a water hose than a mister. Our attempt to get a picture of all the kids... looking. Wednesday was a super low key day. I went running and when I got back from that Mom, Stormy and I all worked out together. Then we hung out around the house, we painted are nails and hid in my bedroom from the kids :) The kids played the Wii most the time. It kind of drove me crazy, I was hoping they would actively play more but I guess times really are changing, whether I like it or not. Later that afternoon we got a wild hair to go and do something. So we loaded up the kids and headed to the splash park. Dutch made that a pretty miserable experience. I'm thinking he was over tired, so the fits started. He finally was able to calm after about an hour or so, he's lucky I did cause him any bodily injuries because I was feeling pretty edgy after those fits, especially at his age, there is just no reason for it. After the splash pad we headed over to the MGM Hotel to watch the lion feeding. If you have never done that when your in Vegas it's definitely worth going to. Totally free and you just watch the guys hand feed the lions about 10 inches from your face. It's pretty cool. Thursday morning Tara watched the kids so that Mom, Stormy and I could go to the temple. It was so nice to go. I love the Vegas temple, the Celestial room is amazing, if ever you come to Vegas you should make a point to go there too! The rest of the random photos from the week!

Wet undies!

Today being Fathers Day I really wanted to go all out and let David have a next relaxing and enjoyable day. Unfortunately I have been sick since yesterday so instead of being pampered, David in turn got to take care of the kids why I laid on the couch and slept most the day. This evening I was laying on the couch, and Talli came walking into the living room sucking on two pairs of Maylee's panties. So I just said very calmly to David, "Did Maylee happen to pee her pants today?" David replied no. Then I said well Talli has two wet pairs of Maylee's panties. David sprang into action and we both instantly knew what happened. Maylee has a tendency to change her panties after every time she uses the potty. Not because they are dirty just because it's what she does, she leaves one pair laying in front of the toilet and goes and gets a clean pair. And Talli happens to LOVE to play in the toilet. See where this is going??? Talli and dunked two pairs of Maylee's panties in the toilet and came toddling out to the living room sucking all the water out of them. She is one gross little girl. I don't think I'll be asking for any kisses for awhile.

The kids were jumping on the trampoline the other day and I was sitting on the edge making sure Talli didn't escape and this is Dutch's conversation...

Dutch: "Mom I love you."

Me: "I love you too buddy"

Dutch: " And I love Maylee and I love Talli and (long pause) I love myself!"

It made me laugh so hard to hear him say that. Cute boy!

Testimony

On Sunday at the start of Fast & Testimony meeting like any normal ward it started out with a BUNCH of little kids bearing their testimonies. But for some reason on this particular Sunday Maylee really notice that other little kids were getting to go up to the front and talk. So about 15 minutes into Testimony meeting Maylee said that she wants to go up and bear her testimony. At first I tried to talk her out of it. Maylee is my shy child when she is in public, at home not so much but in public she just crawls into a shell, so I just 'knew' that she would get up there and bury her head in my shoulder and not say anything. So I told her if she went up she would have to talk really loud and not whisper. So about 5 minutes til the end she still wanted to go up so I took her up there, she enjoyed waiting on the stand for her turn and looking at everyone. When it was our turn I held her up to the mic and before I could even help her she says super loud "family, testimony", So I whispered in her ear after that and she said everything perfectly LoUdlY in the mic. I was so proud of her, I could not believe she did it. It was so very precious and cute. David unfortunately missed it because he was walking the halls with Talli and had no idea Maylee even wanted to go up there. As soon as she was done, like the blond I am I just said into the mic, "I can't believe she did that." Then began bearing my testimony. And I have to say I am grateful that I have a stubborn 3 year old, who sets her mind to something and doesn't back down, because of that I was able to get up and bear my testimony, which isn't something I do very often at all because I get really shy in public, so I really was grateful she pushed me up there.